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| so close |
Date Posted: 03-11-2006 at 11:05 AM |
I only have 3 days until I see J!!!!!!!  am I getting excited or what?I allready have everything I need. Camera (check), film (check) and directions (check). I just need for this headache to go away and for this sinus infection to clear up. I will go headache or not but if I am coughing and sneezing I will call up L and tell her that I have been on antibi. for a week and it was her call because I wouldn't want to be the reason if J came down sick. I blew off a call from E on Thursday. She was heading out of town and will give me a call on Monday afternoon to make sure that I haven't backed out of the visit. (does she know me or what -- that was running thru my mind in December for our last visit). I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to handle seeing J run around the house and see her in her surroundings. It was soo hard to walk out the front door and get into my car and drive away. I know that it will be the same way Tuesday but I will hopefully have some of the pictures that were due in Jan. plus the ones that I will take. B dropped a bombshell on me this week. He had been talking about it for the past month he has the opportunity to go on a ride for 8 months across the country.  I am happy for him because he will be able to do something that he has always wanted to do ride on his bike and go around the country. I need to get updated photos of us to give to L since she asked. He went to a meeting the other night and submitted his expense papers and the head guy is going to be submitting it and see if it is approved. I hope it is. As much as I will miss him I know that I will be able to get him on the phone and I will be able to track his trip online but not seeing him 6x a week will be hard. (I may take up a part time job just to help me pass the time) Not having him come by the house after he has a meeting that he had to go to, not seeing his face and looking into those eyes. He has great looking eyes!! I will miss having his arms around me when I just need a hug, especially after a visit with J and when we get pictures. He is the first person that I show them to.I know that I am rambling at the moment but I just know how much I will miss him. |
| tears :( :( |
Date Posted: 03-12-2006 at 03:21 PM |
| I am in tears. I can't stop. Who cares about the laundry. Who cares about anything at the moment. I checked my voice messages and there was a message from L. They had a death in the family and so our visit would have to be postponed. I cannot stop the tears. I was all prepared to go. I was all set to go. I had allready talked to my supervisor and let her know that I would be late on Tuesday for work becuase of the visit and she was fine with that. I just want to go home and crawl under the covers and cry my heart out. It isn't their fault. This things are going to come up. That's life. I just don't know what to do. I want my medication, I want alcohol. I want a hug from B but he is on his way to pick up his son and he won't be able to talk. E is out of town until tomorrow and I can't call her. I just checked Yahoo messenger and my other supports are offline. I just don't know what to do!?!?!?! |
| looong week finally over |
Date Posted: 03-17-2006 at 08:59 AM |
| Well, I haven't heard from L since Sunday. I really wasn't expecting to. I went and called back later Sunday night and just said don't worry about it. Then I was talking to B on Tuesday and R had another heartattack. His first one was exactly 1 month before. Again he was taking into Boston and as of today he was still there. B wasn't sure when he was getting out. I have just wanted to stay under the covers and forget about everything . My vacation is ending. G is coming home today, so I have been doing some of the last minute stuff for her. Got her some groceries so she wouldn't have to worry about that later on today or tomorrow. It just feels good that I don't have to rush into work tonight after her flight comes in. |
| upset, depressed |
Date Posted: 03-21-2006 at 07:02 PM |
| I haven't heard yet from L. I want to just pick up the phone and call. Except I want to call when I get home from work. 1:30 in the morning is just too late to call. I just want to make sure that everyone is okay. I really miss her and just want to see her smile. Saw my doctor again today. Had a little arguement with her today because she wanted to put me on a new medication after I told her that I had a reaction to the shot version. Sorry but not going to happen. So she finally gave me a name for a neurologist. I called and my appointment is 4 months away. :0 But if I get all my paperwork to them I will be put on the cancellation list if someone calls up and cancels. I was just in a mood that when I saw B today he allready was having a bad day that I just went and picked a fight with him. It didn't matter about what but I was just in a mood and unfortunately he was the one person I have this need to lash out on. Why? I don't know. He is the only one I will pick a fight with. I called him on some of the lies that he has been telling and I just went with it. Missed a call from E and so I called her back and told her exactly what happened and how crappy my day was. I stop going to the mail box. I go 2x a week. The pictures from January never came and now it is March and still nothing. Why do I hang on to this? |
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