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My name is Amy I am 34 years old. I am married to my best friends of 17 years. We are going to be married 7 years this June. We have three children collectively. I am a stay at home mom. I gave up my profession to stay at home and raise my children. Much to my parents chagrin! But I wouldn't trade a minute of it for a white coat and a pay check. I am much more comfortable in "play clothes" and scrimping to be home with the babies. My husband is away from home often for work so it is important for one of us to be here all the time for the kids. I thought I would start my journal so that I can put down in words some of my thought and feelings about this adoption process. I cant remember when it was Joe and I decided we would adopt. I just remember it always being part of who we are. I am the 1st born but 2nd oldest child in a family of which some of the children are adopted. So, it was always there. After my youngest was born my husband and I decided that we would no longer have any more children biologically. This decision was made concrete by the fact that I had to have a hysterectomy at the age of 30. Soon after we purchased our own home my husband lost his job and was unemployed for 3 very very long years! After our recovery from financial devastation we started talking about adding to our family once again. Approximately 3 months after our 1st conversation we were approached by a friend of our family about adopting their granddaughters baby. No one knew that we were even discussing it, so this was a shock to us. Unfortunately this match didn't work out for us but since we were one visit away from completion of our home study we decided to push forward. A week later we received a call from our CW asking for us to "throw together" a profile for a baby that had been born the day before. This was not a match for us either. The birth mother felt we had enough children already. This sent me into a wave of panic. I thought we may never have a child if all birth mothers felt this way. After spending enough time here on the boards I have come to learn that all birth mothers are looking for something different and we have just as good a chance as anyone else to be matched. So here I sit. Impatiently waiting for a call. Praying that every day would be the day. Hoping somewhere out there is an expectant mother choosing our family to give her child something she feared she couldn't give. One never knows what tomorrow may bring. I hope someday my unfinished family will finally be complete.
The CW called this evening with a possible situation. She wanted to talk to me about. I wasn't home so I will have to call her tomorrow. She said not to get hopes up because it may be nothing. She said she received a call from a social worker today and she may send out profile. I guess we will see what happens. Today is not such a great day I am so sick! I went back to bed after the kids got on the bus and fell asleep till 1 PM YIKES!!! I am going to doctor tomorrow I believe its a sinus infection but my glands are super swollen! I keep telling the kids to get away so I wont breath near them LOL. Joe is staying one more over night for work and he will be home tomorrow morning. We have not seen each other since Monday. its been a crazy week. I Am so looking forward to the weekend. Well, I am going to take some nyquil and hit they hay! Till Tomorrow~
Ahhhhhh feeling so much better today. No more fever. Today was great Joe and I got a lot done. We had more copies of our profile made and boy are they expensive! All that printing starts to add up. We went out to lunch and shopping this afternoon with Naomi and bought a few fun things like clothes and a pattern for her birthday dress. It is so cute and she picked out new sparkly white shoes. I decided to but a new table cloth for the dining room its very colorful and spring like. I am so wanting the spring to come quickly. Still no news from the CW I hope to hear something by the end of the week. Till next time ~
A great start to the week! Kids are had a good day and I didnt have to cook dinner because Dad took us out! I went to my agency this morning to drop off the new profiles ...As I walked into agency with new profiles my case worker had just hung up the phone leaving a message for me to bring them to her she needed them. She opened the door and said "IT'S MAGIC!!!" I learned a little more about the parents of this baby today. The baby was born last week and mom called agency from the hospital saying she wanted to place. They only have 3 families interested in this situation so it is us and two other families. Boy how nerve wrecking! This is why I NEVER EVER want to know when we are being shown!!! I do understand under certain circumstances she has to call us because of certain "situations" She is very good about letting us know either way as soon as she does! I guess I am supposed to go about my week like always and pretend that I am not hoping and praying that the phone rings with a YES on the other end. Its just impossible to do it though. Last time we went thru this it was about 3 weeks for the parents to choose and they didn't choose us because we already have kids but it was a long *** 3 weeks I tell ya! Well, I have to go read Naomi a bed time story. Till another day~
A glorious day! My baby is 12 today!!! How did he get so big? Where did the time go? We are surprising him with a cake at school today. He will be thrilled! Well, today marks days 5 of our wait. Nothing yet. Do I call? Do I give it thru the weekend? I am sure the mom is overwhelmed with all the reading she has to do. I hate this crawling feeling in my skin! I want to be able to go about my business without thinking about it. When will they call? what will the answer be? If its no then why? Could we have done or said something different? I know it is weird but I feel like the parents are looking over my shoulder. Like I am being judged even though there is nothing to judge. All they know of us is the profile they have. They cant know how I load my dishwasher or that I can never keep up with my wash or that my house is immaculate but my car is trashed! I know how silly it sounds but I cant be the only one who feels this way. your life under a microscope is an interesting thing to have going on. Maybe I should clean out that care just in case they are watching! LOL
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