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Journalist: tarabendle	Status: Public
Entries: 3 (Private: 0)	Comments: 0
Start Date: 07-29-2005	Last Updated: 10-13-2005
Views: 301
Description: Our search for you

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# 1

We miss you

Date Posted: 07-29-2005 at 08:39 PM

Dyan/Christina,

I don't know if you will ever read this, but I wanted to let you know that your ENTIRE birth family loves you, and wants you in our lives.

You were put into your maternal grandfathers family tree years ago. The whole family knows of your birth. You would be welcomed into wide open arms immediatley.

I remember when my sister was pregnant with you. She was going to give you up (I think) without our parents knowing. I guess because of our fight one night, she told them. They stood by her decision, and gave her the love she needed. The support she needed at the time to help give you a better life than she could have given you.

I have been looking for you since before you were 18, ever since I read the few posts that my sister has made over the years. It is so hard to do, because you were born and adopted in Missouri. They are such a closed and strict state. Legally, I am not supposed to contact you before you turn 21, and can't even do that unless both your aprents agree to it.

It is soooo fustrating....

I have recently started my own website for Missouri searches in order to help make it easier for Mo searchers. I just wish I knew you were looking for us. I don't even know if YOU know you were adopted. That we even exist.

You were born in St Charles County Mo on April 25, 1985, but the adoption may have taken place in St Louis County. It may say that on your ammended BC. You were a beautiful baby honey. Such pretty hair and eyes.

Please find us. Our hearts will never be complete without you.

I love you - Aunt Tara

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# 2

its late

Date Posted: 08-06-2005 at 09:33 PM

It's about 12:35am right now.

I'm tired.

I spent most of the evening(since about 7pm) on the internet looking for you again. I spen at least 4 hours each weekday looking for you. I try to find search angels in Missouri so they can look at the library in the archives to search for a birth notice - or legal case that was listed on the newspaper.

We love you..... Miss you too.....

Have a good night sweetheart.

Love, Aunt Tara

# 3

Wow!!! To son to know anything.

Date Posted: 10-13-2005 at 11:08 PM

So much has happened since my last entry.

I have been so busy. Thank god I have most of my Christmas shopping done.

I have had so many ups and downs looking for you. A few months ago, someone sent me a post from reunion.com that matched quite a bit. But I never got thru. Phone number was disconnected. I had no way of finding out.

Then tonight I'm on here again, and I see that this girl has posted again!!!!
Then I checked my email. She has sent me an email!!!!!

My heart is racing...... its 2:14 in the morning here. I am tired, but I'm going to have to try to get some sleep. I have to be up at 7. I'll probably toss and turn. This is the FIRST good chance at finding you.

Jenny........God......... PLEASE LET ME FIND HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tara