We started checking out agencies in early April. That wasnt easy but then nothing about this process will be! We thought we 'd found the right one, Int. Fam. but then we found out that they are being sued and when I asked for their side of the story, they lied, denied it, then partially admitted some of it and turned snarky. So that's it for them. I was very upset at the thought of having to start the research all over again. But my new email support group has been wonderful. Laura, especially, is an incredible woman, she herself went through the adoption experience from hell but is still so positive about int. adoption. She really helps keep me going! Anyway I started checking out other agencies but each one had a problem with it. Now we are consdiering Palmetto Hope, based in SC, run by a woman lawyer who seems to have her act together. I've asked people who've used P.H. to write to me and most of them have been positive, the only criticism is that their questions were not immediately answered and I think that could bother me
during the process. I am addicted to these forums and last night stayed up till 2 am, looking at photos of other people's kids from Guat and wondering what ours will look like. actually some of the babies were pretty funny-looking but then I've always thought that about babies including our own. But Lisa's little girl Marisol is totally adorable and I want ours to look like her! I had trouble sleeping and woke up with the sun at 5:45 am! Then dh and I started talking and among other things he said he is concerned about the way I'm going to handle the process and that I'm already too emotional about it. Yes, that is true but I need the emotion to help me get through this or nothing will happen. I really want to sign with the agency already and actually "get started." One wonderful thing, Shannon, Brooke and I have started watching the show Adoption Stories and we all love it. It helped me to explain to them why we want to adopt and they love the idea. Now if only their three big brothers will feel the same way but I know that is not going to happen, short of a miracle! I'm so glad I found this journal, it will help keep me sane through the process and when I'm done, it will become my book "Children of the Heart" that I started to write years ago when we first tried to adopt. Bye for now. |
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